I have a pretty messed up body clock. The fact that I cant even distinguish if I’m a morning or an evening person. Which honestly, I find strange. I cant say that I ‘m a morning person just because I can wake up early in the morning but the thing is I don’t sleep early in the evening. Nor I can say that I’m an evening person just because I can work effectively late at night but the fact that I don’t find it hard waking up early in the morning. Maybe I am somewhere in between these two. I’m a morevening person. Woah that was lame. Haha.
Summers are to blame for my fucked up body clock. Summers are my times of staying up til 3 in the morning just to finish my movie marathons or reading a book, my times of waking up 2 in the afternoon, and staying up late talking to my summer fling. A typical summer for a teenager, or not. I guess I don’t party like them or go on road trips with my friends. But then summer ends then school comes. Back to school means back to waking up 4:30 in the morning, staying past 12 just to finish my homework and requirements, and doing my best to listen and understand our lectures. A very tiring and exhausting day compared to my chill and relaxing summer. But I can’t put the blame on summer because I should’ve used my summer to rest for me to be able to prepare for my school days. A clear sign for lack of self-discipline. Oh well, I cant stress on things i could’t change.
There are three things I am absolutely positive of: First, I am girl. Second, there’s a part of me but I’m not sure how potent it is that thirsted for something sweet. And third, I am unconditionally and irrevocably in love with sweets. Sounds familiar? I got it from twilight though I changed it with something that is more “me”.
Ever since I was a child I always had a sweet tooth. I just love and crave for something sweet. Whether its an ice cream (which is my favorite comfort food) or a red velvet cupcake (which I am currently eating). I JUST LOVE SWEETS. I even like it on my viands. It might seem strange but I like my adobo sweet. Sweets are my ultimate comfort food. They cheer me up whenever I feel blue, they accompany me in times of loneliness, and they give me the right amount of boost of energy I need to start my day. That irresistible feeling of ice cream melting in my mouth or that feeling of satisfaction I get from a slice of cake; the reasons why I would never hate sweets. There’s just something about sweets that make me feel good, or sometimes better. Whenever I eat cotton candies and cookies, it brings me a nostalgic feeling of my childhood. Those summers that I would spend with my friends eating sorbetes and halo-halo in our veranda. And those memorable moments that I would be helping my mom bake cookies and brownies and how we would just laugh whenever we burn the desserts we’re baking. Those are some of the simple joys I get from eating sweets. I also learned that eating chocolates would make you happier! Regardless that it’s your favorite food or what but because it releases endorphins that produces a feeling of happiness. Oh yeah. I’m learning in our Psychology class. Haha. I find it amazing how simple things like food, in my situation sweets can bring happiness and joy to us. That it is possible to find happiness even with the littlest things in life.
I just finished reading Divergent by Veronica Roth. And I just can’t wait to buy and read Insurgent. I am recently getting hooked into dystopian books. They are simply amazing because they give me ideas on what can or may happen in the future. Different perspectives from different authors. Plus I get to read and go head over heels with boys like Four and Peeta. Jk. Haha.
"Faction before blood" In the book Divergence, their society gives priority on their factions: Abnegation, Dauntless, Erudite, Amity, and Candor. They represent different personalities that people possess like being brave and selfless. After reading this it made me realize how much I’ve fallen in love with Four. Just Kidding. But it made me understand how bravery and selflessness are interconnected with each other. "I have a theory that selflessness and bravery aren’t all that different." says Four. And it made me wonder how can it be. First what is the true meaning of bravery and selflessness? Does being brave means being able to fight others or is it being able to face your fears and live freely. And does being selfless mean rejecting one’e self? I believe that being brave is being able to think critically even when faced with one’s worst fears and that being selfless is not rejecting but being able to deny one’s self for the betterment of others. And this is when it came to my mind how can these two be similar. One must have the courage to help others. Just like what Tris did when she stand up for Al and takes his place for his punishment. It takes a lot of bravery to stand up for others, and in Tris’ situation, it takes a lot of guts and comes with a huge risk. One must be brave enough to give up her rights and comforts to be able to be selfless. Simplicity and frugality are not easily attained. We must overcome a lot of temptations and restraint from our pleasures to possess these. But these are only my opinion. Maybe for some, bravery and selflessness would never go together or that maybe they have other interpretations for it. But for me bravery and selflessness can be one.
And lastly, I just want to tell you all how much I love the book Divergence and Four. Oops. Haha. Is it getting really obvious how much I like him? Its just that I love how his character is. How he’s so mysterious and caring to Tris, his subtle affection to her, and how awesome he is that he has only four fears and that he does not hunger for power even he had the opportunity to have it. And plus he was able to fight the simulation made specially for divergents. Do you know how hard and awesome that is? Oh Four. How awesome can you get? So I want to thank and show my appreciation to Ms. Veronica Roth for writing this kickass fiction and bringing Four and his words of wisdom in to my life.
Today it felt like everything was in order. Having the right time, right place, and even the right weather. It was like a perfect moment for me. Surrounding myself with my two favorite things in the world, books and ice cream, made it even more perfect.
A pint of ice cream and a good book to read will surely go a long way. Me being able to savor that Ben & Jerry’s New York Super Fudge Chunk was truly magical. The taste of chocolate ice cream with white and dark fudge, pecans, walnuts, and almonds was like a piece of heaven melting in my mouth. I couldn’t even put into words how amazing this flavor is, or even how amazing an ice cream is. An ice cream is my ultimate comfort food. It can make my day or even turn that from into a smile. Surely everything’s better with an ice cream.
Then I even paired an ice cream with a book. How amazing could this day get? While enjoying my Ben & Jerry’s I decided to reread The Fault In Our Stars. I have no idea why but I just felt this urge to read it again. I’m a big fan John Green’s work that I even bought all his books. TFIOS has this bittersweet flavor in it. A bit expected but truly wonderful. Being able to put love and tragedy together may be a little mainstream but John Green gave it a subtle humor and a modern twist. A novel that I’ll be happy to reread. I keep on falling inlove with Gus every time I read this. He’s like this hot boy who loves to save fictional children even if it means him losing the game, and who puts killing machines between his mouth as a metaphorical resonance, and who would sneak in the hospital ICU just to see Hazel Grace. He’s my book boyfriend. I guess perfect boys only exist in books. But meeting someone like him would be really awesome.
A perfect combination of Ben & Jerry’s and The Fault In Our Stars. It was my little paradise where I can escape reality. Where I can lose track of time, where I can day dream, and where I can just enjoy my books and ice cream. My own piece of heaven here on earth!
First of all, I told myself that I wouldn’t post or even think of something like this to put in my blog but I cant help it. This rain is just giving me nostalgia about someone. It may sound a bit pathetic or what. But its a bit true. Oops. Haha. Let me start and end this with a note for this person.
Well its been a while and I really miss talking to you. Especially those corny jokes you just love to tell. I miss those late night talks we have, those teases you tell me, and your subtle “banats”. Its funny how I can be easily attached to someone. Something even more surprising is how attached I am to you. No offense but your not even much of my type. Haha. I just want to tell you that you can’t just go into my life making me care and just suddenly leave. It was like I’m falling inlove alone. You have no idea how that feels. How it makes me wonder on what went wrong. But I can’t regret things that once made me smile.
I just realized how pathetic this is and that he wouldn’t even have the chance to read this. Maybe I just needed to let all those feelings out and I can honestly say that it made me a little happier!